Maybe Just A Few Tears...

Posted by Mack of Sound-Savvy On 11:11 AM

I told myself I couldn't cry... I wouldn't. This week makes it a year since u left us, and it's still hard to grasp. This past week random images of you seemed to just pop into my head... I hear your voice and your laugh... and then that 4:30 am phone call replays in my were gone.

I told myself I can't cry now... I fight the tears because I'm trying to be strong for Dad, he misses you so much. I keep my eyes dry so I can be his strength. I know it's especially hard for him, he was holding your hand when you took God's hand. I know it's crazy but I still haven't removed your number from my cell phone, it's kinda like part of you is still with me, especially when I'm flipping through and I see "Grandma" in the list. I know you're looking down on your family wondering how and why certain things have happened since you went home, I wish I could answer that. I wish I could do a lot of things, but all I can do is miss you. Save me a seat up there, we'll have a lot of catching up to do when I get there. Your grandson misses you, and loves you forever.

I told myself I wouldn't cry, but tonight, when I'm by myself, I can let a few tears fall, not in weakness or sadness, but because your love gives me strength, and your new life gives me hope...that I'll see you again. Love you Grandma...

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1 Comment

  1. Strong words dude. I often think about my own grandmother who passed when I was 8, this was an inspirational read !

    Posted on September 25, 2008 at 9:07 AM


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